Matthew looked at all the people there in the hall as he left class he was looking for his brother Alfred to ask him if he wanted to go to Prom with him. Matthew wondered what Alfred would say to him because they were brothers and it was weird that he would want to ask him that. The only reason that he did want to ask his brother was because no one but the two of them and Arthur knew that they were brothers.
Matthew was at his locker when he found his brother but to his dismay Alfred was holding hands with Arthur. At that moment Matthew felt completely torn apart. To see Alfred, his one and only love, with Arthur. To the both of them Arthur was like a father but apparently not to Alfred. Tears started to from in Matthew's eyes as they walked by smiling and laughing together. Once they passed by him Matthew ran as fast as he could out of the school and in to the forest that surrounded the school. He ran, and ran, until he couldn't anymore. He stopped at the top of a small hill and fell to his knees with his hands on the ground. Then the tears started to fall from his eyes. He always wanted Alfred to be his and no one else's. Kumajirou was there with Matthew as always and he asked. "Why are you crying?"
love me!" Matthew answered back to his polar bear companion in between sobs. Matthew hugged Kumajirou like he always did when he was upset. He sat there until he was able to pull himself together again but he knew that he would never be able to be around Alfred and Arthur for long without completely breaking down and crying like he just did.
Matthew left the forest with Kumajirou in his arms and he headed back to the school. He had lost track of time in the forest but luckily only 10 minutes had passed so wasn't late for his next class.
Alfred was in his class. It was a social interactions class. Arthur was also in the class, so was Ivan, Francis, Ludwig, Feliciano, Kiku, Yao, and various others. Everyone had a lover except for Matthew. Even Ivan who was very scary and aggressive but Francis loved him anyway. Ludwig had Feliciano and Kiku had Yao.
The class went on as Matthew watched everyone enjoying their partners company and Matthew himself feeling left out. He felt sad but at least he had Kumajirou. He was his only real friend. He was always there with Matthew. Finally the class ended and so did the school day.
"Yo Mattie, I'm going over to Arthur's for the night and I'm staying over. So, ya." Alfred told Matthew while they were walking home.
"Ya ok then I'll just pick something up from the store." Matthew replied. Alfred and Arthur started to walk in the opposite direction because that where Arthur's house was. Matthew turned around to watch them walk away and saw them kissing. He turned back around and ran the rest of the way home he didn't even bother to buy dinner, he just ran. Matthew couldn't stand to see them together.
When he got home to the apartment they lived in he threw his keys at the wall and fell back against the door and fell apart. He cried and cried and cried. He wanted to die now seeing them so happy. His Alfred with Arthur. Matthew wanted nothing else in the world but for Alfred to love him. Again Kumajirou asked him. "Why are you crying?"
"He will never love me. Why would he? He has HIM now so why do I still feel this way about him? I always fall apart when I see them together so happy." Matthew replied.
After Matthew had calmed down enough he stood up and went to the fridge still sobbing. He opened it and pulled out some pancake's he saved for later. He placed them in the microwave and waited till they were warm enough to eat. Matthew had enough for both himself and Kumajirou. He took the pancakes out to the living room and sat down on the couch with Kumajirou beside him. They ate the pancakes in silence. When they finished Matthew put the plate in the sink than went back to the couch and sat beside back down. "Why don't we watch a movie?" Matthew asked Kumajirou.
"Hmm, I don't feel like a movie." Kumajirou replied.
"Well then why don't we go to the park and watch the sunset?" Matthew asked Kumajirou again.
"Sure that sounds fun." Kumajirou told him.
They left awhile after that because Matthew needed to change from his school clothes. When they got to the park they picked a spot by the lake and laid out a blanket to sit on. Matthew and Kumajirou just sat there and watched the sunset over the lake but the Matthew started thinking about Alfred again. He looked away from the sunset over to a large tree that stood beside the lake and saw Francis sitting on Ivan kissing him. This made Matthew even more upset. Then he curled up into a ball holding his knees and put his head in between his knees and his chest and began to sob. He said to Kumajirou. "I want to go home now. Seeing Ivan and Francis here is making me think about Alfred. I wanted to come here to forget about him for awhile."
Kumajirou looked at him with a confused face and asked for a third time. "Why are you crying?"
"Because I will never be able to feel his lips against mine or his warm chest against me or hear him say, "I love you" to me." Matthew told Kumajirou while crying like a baby.